Hahahahaha.

Well here's really the recap of my day:

The whole night until 6:00am- read books until I hear the door creak and in the split second I realise it's mum and I drop my book and look like I'm sleeping. This fools her (MWAHAHAHA) and I gloat to myself until she turns the light of so i cant read anyway. Dammit.

I fall asleep until 12:00- DAMMIT X10000!!! My sister and I were going to go to the gym, but we woke up late ugh!!!

1:30- We get ready and I dont want to go to the gym. Ugh. I go to get my passport, but then i leave it. Ops. Go back to get it. Sister is mad. Teehee.

2:00- we find out I cant get a gym membership. Sister is mad. hahahahhahaha. I instead swim, which leaves my beautiful Rapunzel hair to smell like chlorine. Hahaha.

4:00- By then we have gotten changed, and are at home. Duckiee is home. Yay!

7:45- Duckiee is practically family, so all we do is eat ramen, sleep, talk, sleep, go on the computer and draw crazy photos. She is my complainng buddieeeee.

8:00- I scooter her to the bustop. We are talking, when something extremely not funny yet it HILARIOUS happens. Here is a drawing: (left is Duckiee, right is me)

 idk why, but it was just hilarious.

Good times, which made me realise-good friends are sometimes all you need.

As well as, you know, money etc, but still.

Hmmm.

My resolution-stop being a freaking pushover. Seriously, get a hold of yourself.

Also I should stop having all nighters- your short enough already!

Plus, stop doing smiley icons now. it gets on my nerves >:( <---- hahahahahaa


Keep reading books-they make you not bored. Also, they're awesome.
Dont let anyone make you depressed. Punch them.












Try to not cross the days of school left.

Sigh.

After having my third all nighter, I would like to credit some authours for writing some damn awesome books which mostly include very hot guys who I wish existed.

First, Meg Cabot- although I have to admit you do have a habit of writing your stories so that all the characters sound exactly the same, your older books such as the Mediator series and 1-800 where are you have brought me to tears of laughter, sadness and happiness. I just finished reading the last Mediator series Twilight and I can say that for certain (no offense Stephanie Meyer, this is just my opinion) that your book SMACKED the other Twilight in the face. I love Suze's sense of humour, her honesty and just irony. Very clever. I wish I could kick some butt like her. Same for Jess, who is also equally funny and tough though I admit I like Suze better just because I've been with her longer. Also, you do have some INCREDIBLY HOT guys in your books, all of them extremely attractive but the best guy has to be JESSE DE SILVA! Just the hotest guy ever. It makes me sad that theres no guys like that in real life. Also I wanted to punch Paul but because Meg's Damn you Meg! Anyways, you write books with the most interesting topics to them (ghosts, physic powers, princesses, brain switching, king arthur myths etc) which is why I love your books. I'm looking foward to Abandon as I also looove Greek myth based stories- I hope that it has the same pow to it as it did to the Mediator series and 1-800 series. Keep writing like you use to! :)

Secondly, a gulp of reality- Sarah Dessen, the queen of making the most... how do I explain it? After reading one of your books, I am filled with hope, thoughts, and emptiness. It is super hard to explain, but it is as If I am satisfied after reading one of your books, as if I have gone through an experience, an adventure, been there for Annabel, Macy,  Something is not right here. I first read Just Listen, but at a young age I did not understand what it was about and merely took it as another book I read in an hour. However, in one of my book sales I saw The Truth about Forever- and I know this is bad- and judged it on it's pretty cover. Im sorry, but in this case, you should judge your books on their cover. This book immediately sucked me in, and I re-read Just Listen again, which is now officially my FAVOURITE BOOK. And I have read a lot of books. I have read (in order of dislikes to likes), This Summer, Lock and Key, Someone like You, Dreamland, This Lullaby, Keeping the Moon, Along for the ride, The truth about Forever (ugh! Along for the ride and The truth about forever has to be equal!) and finally, Just Listen. You have made the completely unexpected things into cute, romantic stuff, like learning how to ride a bike, bonding over music, wanting to work at a fastfood resturant/cateering, WAFFLES AND BACON!, cupcakes, the truth game, long all nighters just driving, EVERYTHING. Also, you have made one of the not just dreamy, good looking, but honest, awesome guys which has given me falsehopeandireadlywanttoblameyoufordoingthistobebutijustbecauseyourbooksaretooawesome! Ugh, and so right now I am going to do a long list of You Know your a Sarah Dessen fan when... which I found on your page:

You know your a Sarah Dessen fan when...

• you find yourself saying 'doneven' and 'bettaquit' to your friends.
• you dont sleep til 5 reading on a school day
• you wish that waffle pens actually existed
• you want rings just like Owen's
• you use his Anger Management vocabulary, like I-lang, R and R, placeholder
•  you name your blog after one of her book's quotes
• you wish that you didnt learn how to ride a bike when you were little so someone would teach you...
• you feel the need to carry around cupcakes to make the guy you like's ex to get jealous
• you read her books over and over again
• you keep saying 'sa-woon' to one of your friends
• you start loving music, because it reminds you of Owen
• you start regreting reading Sarah Dessens books because none of the guys fit your music-crazy, artistic, thoughtful, truthful, funny, SD guys
• you make an playlist on your ipod called Just Listen
• you want to play games like Gotcha! and truth
• you want to eat bacon and waffles with Owen
• you wish you could roam round at night just going into cafe and eating pies
• Mono-tone Monica reminds you of yourself
• you wanna date Owen, or a music freak/artistic
• you want some of those stuff that make your life easier
• you always say in your head 'dont think or judge, Just Listen'

And now my ideal guy is
OWEN ARMSTRONG, mixed with a little WES and NORMAN, and a touch of DEXTER.

I think its time for a Sarah Dessen book marathon.
You have ruined/created my life, Sarah. I'm looking forward to What happened to Goodbye, will probably be as awesome as your other books!

Im tired. Go to sleep, I have to draw Savannah Georgia now.
Valve,
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Girls kick ass.

Go Mulan woop woop!


Stuff Disney princess, here's a role model.

Smoke, snow and dinosaurs

Today was one of the funniest days of my holiday.

Before I explain what happened, I have to tell you what happened last night- or do I? Its not that important...but it'll be interesting! Blah blah blah.

Lets just say that people change when you meet them 8 years later and I'll know what Im talking about.

So today afternoon my sister and I decided to go out. Maybe it was the fact that for some weird reason, I was getting hypt up and screaming at her. Also it had just snowed (yippeeee!) so I wanted to go out and make a snow man. So we went out, and looked around etc. I tried to make a snow man but... it kinda failed, as the snow was so soft but freaking cold!!!

Here are the photos:

Oh yeah, so I was standing on the sideway when I slipped into this and as I was slipping I was thinking oh shit sleep dont make me freeze to death because usually where I slipped into has water and I thought it wouldve turned into ice and when I slipped into it I thought I would crack the ice and water would come out. But there was no water which meant water didnt come out and I didnt freeze to death. Im glad I cleared that up.

A smart way of making trees warm... wrapping them with a million lights...

Me squating like a person who has to pee, and freeazing my hands trying to make a snowman... which turned into a snow pile...

And then, I came home, to find out my dad had been caught smoking! Now btw, I am not a bad daughter who finds it funny that her dad is inhaling horrible stuff. I hate smoke. I could have a long rant about it, but I wont. So anyway, my dad use to smoke but he quit and stopped like 2 years ago. In Seoul, there are alot of smokers. It is quite tempting. So apparantely the story goes that dad was suddenly like oh its stuffy here Im going to get ice-cream and he left leaving my mum suspicious. Later he came smeelling of smoke and that is how my dad got told off.

Which is why I find it so funny- though I didnt see him get told off, I could totally imagine it. My mum was totally cool about it when we arrived home, but dad was like totally embarrassed.

CRACK UP.

And now I will talk about my new obssession of play-doh.

My sister and I were in the supermarket and we were bored. So we decided to buy some play-doh! I have decided that I am pro at making sad faces. Here are some photos... or not.

After like 15 minutes, my photos of the ugly faces and dinosaurs arent uploding! :O I will later on- I promise.

SO- sorry,  but I probably wont be able to go onto this blog and post something for around... 1 week? Im going somewhere and it has no internet stuff so :(

Valve!!



OmgthisissofreakingfunnythatiwanttopissmypantslaughingbutthenI'llwakeupmyparentsandIdontthinkthatwillbegoodandIreallyshouldonwiththispostshouldntI?

I am feeling happier than I have in a while.

Thank you, Allie. Your blog http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/ has made me crack up all morning. I found you last night, while I was sulking about my crap Christmas.I'd just come back from being in the car for like 1 hour, going to a bowling alley, watching my dad play screen golf, entering a room smelling of smoke and old men playing pool, walking outside and trying to not inhale smoke, then entering a random house who I dont even know and having to eat cheesecake there, making the stupidest mistake ever in my Korean-English vocabulary, being told by the man's daughter that I have a guys voice (oh gee thanks), being another man's daughter, driving home and wanting to fall asleep but scared that my contacts might roll to the back of my eye and end up falling asleep anyway, then waking up and freaking out and then against my will going up the elavator and typing in the pin number and then looking up different blogs and then finding you :)

I think I nearly did piss my pants laughing :) readers- go and get your butt on her blog! Awesome as drawings and posts.

Oh yeah, I should upload some photos of my night-

I need a new ipod. The ipod Im using right now only has like 1GB so I only have 100 songs :( man I love having an ipod. Saves you from boredom and its nice. I listened to my sisters blog while I was sleeping. Weirdly, I somehow turned it off while I was sleeping...

Omg. I have nothing to do. At all. 

I think I might go make some papercranes, watch and movie, read more of Allie's blog and be bored. 

I just found out that being bored makes you depressed. 

And being depressed makes you bored. 

And it repeats over and over.

I need a new hobby. I really should knit that scarf with my feet. But I dont have any wool. This day is getting shittier every single second. 

Im making a paper crane now. In year 8 I use to make paper cranes, and try to get 1000 for a wish. I only got up to like 100, but it was still a try. 

The rentals are making me go outside. I just want to stay inside, eat and make paper cranes like a hobo.

Maybe some fresh air will do me good. 

Here is my paper crane. His name is Manhang, which means good luck in Korean. He's a ninja, and can do some pretty mean tricks.

Happy Birthday Manhang!

Now I think its time for me to leave this nest.

-

Boredom

Time to try out something new.
Quiz time!

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? No, but I've almost kinda been in one.
02. Do you have a lot of scars? I have 3 on my leg, and one on my face from my cousin.
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? No. Well, a joke one. 

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? Yes. I threw cello tape at my friend. 
05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? Not from my memory...

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? No.
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? Sometimes.
08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? No.
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? No. Never.
10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? How someone acts in a bad situation.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? None.
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? I dont think i'll be brave enough to give birth or have an abortion.
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Always.
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Take away all my happiness.
15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? Go to a school I didnt want to.

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I dont really tell them, but it's in my face and tone.
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. When I feel sad.
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? Parents fighting, but just the usual.
19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? I laugh it off and dont show how I feel.
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. Yes, but it didnt really affect me because I didnt know her well. What affected me was how the people around me who knew them well reacted.

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? um apart from cleaning dishes no.
22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? No.
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? Compared to some people no but to me yes.
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? No. Too immature and irrisponsible.
25. How old do you act? Sometimes my age, sometimes older or younger.

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? Sometimes when I'm angry.
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? Family.
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? Not everything.
29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? Yes.
30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? Well um I see them everyday?

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? 163cm, but I want to be at least taller than my sister so 166cm?
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? No there was this one time where I grew heaps.
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? Both.
34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? No, its all a part of life.
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Yes.

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? Both.
37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? I guess more of a pessimist. I get that a lot.
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? Both. Our actions are the results, but I believe everything we choose happens for a reason.
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Well I'm Christian.
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? Listening to music. 

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? There was a period of time when I felt extremely sad and lonely. I still occasionally have those moments, but I dont like to think about it.
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? No.
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? Um no?
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? Yes and no.
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? Weirdly, a lot but not just about myself. 

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke)- QT, Swine Flu
47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? Both.
48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? Once when I was little I was laughing with my friend while drinking orange juice and I felt like I couldnt breathe.
49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! Too many :)
50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? Um sometimes? Not a lot.

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? all of them.
52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? It depends on the situation.
53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? idk.
54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? Higher.
55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? Um art, math (not interesting, its hard.)

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? Well i guess you couldnt call it love but sometimes it felt like it. Maybe Obssessive love?
57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? Yes, but I dont think they mean it.
58. Is love worth it? Yes.
59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? Yes but I try to get over it because it might be true.
60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? I personally dont like saying I love you because most of the time its meaningless but I do have times when I mean it.

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? Yes. Sad, but true.
62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? Er, average?
63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? No.
64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? Always love.
65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 7? You always need money, just not enough to be obssessed.

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? Er yes.
67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? Strange but it has happened once?
68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? Not really.
69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? Ummm?
70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! More nice?

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? A while.
72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? They have to respect me.
73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? No.
74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? ....
75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? Parents- theres always a limit and close friends- the limit is when I cant explain something.

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? This is hard. I guess erase. 

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? Yes. Not having to experience love would be sad.
78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? I try to be optimistic but Im pessimistic.
79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? I guess.
80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please exlain what it was: -

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? I try to figure it out by myself but when I need help I ask.
82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? I believe in God, but I question other things, like how did different languages become, and how did people invent things.
83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? idk, maybe I've read too many stories but sometimes I think that there's a secret agency for spies under the government.

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? Let it go.
85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? I know the answer but i still doesnt seem right- why is there so much hatred in the world?

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? I do but I dont. People reckon listening to people is a sign of respect. Im a really bad listener, which is bad. I show my respect through kindess, and caring about the person.
87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? Say something hurtful and mean it. I will always have a grudge even though I cant help it.
88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? in a strange way yes.
89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? Being told off.
90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? Both. 

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? Um sorry I dont do grades.
92. When will you graduate high school/college? In a few years?
93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? I want to travel the world and experience different cultures and I guess find out why I was put on this planet.
94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? I guess hate. I hate all the fake people living in it.
95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? No.

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? Yes.
97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? Hahhahaha well I have drunk alcohol but my parents offered so I dont think that is peer-pressure?
98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? No.
99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? Nooooo
100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? Well i guess Im more of a weak person sadly :(

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I dont copy clothes, behaviours or things like that.
103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? I dont follow trends, I wear what I think looks nice.
104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? No.
105. What makes you different from people your age? I guess I think  a lot about different things. 

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? My bed?!
107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? Yes
108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? The people who truely care for me.
109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? My sister.
110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? Yes and no.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? 1.For everyone to be happy. 2. Have people I can truely say that I can trust. 3. World Peace.
112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? truthfully, myself. Its selfish, but true.
113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? You have to make them come true.
114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? To eat some food.
115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? Sometimes yes and no.

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? Independent.
122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? Unfairness.
123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? If I truely believe in myself.
124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? I believe people can change, but somethings never will.
125. Do you think people are generally good ? Yes, they just become influenced later on.

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? Yes/no. Im happy that I have friends, family. I wish that I would always be happy though, and not empty. I dont even know why i feel empty.
127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? No.
128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? Both. i hate changes but usually its for the best.
129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? Yes/No.

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? Seeing people who almost have nothing to live for accomplish something and live happier than most people.