Brains can be stubborn.

I am having an extremely mild mild mild case of writer's block.

Here I am, it's a perfect time, most of my homework is done, I have the laptop completely to myself, no one is interupting me and guess what? My brain is deciding, nope, not tonight.

WHY?


I mean, inside my head I can imagine what's going to happen, and its exciting. But I cant seem to put it onto paper, and if it did, it would be boring, bland, and a mush. Not nice.

So fine Brain! You won! You get a night's rest, of relaxing even though we havent even written a lot yet, and tomorrow we'll pick up from where we were and type up those idea's inside your head.


It's not everyday when you're brain wins.

Jenny

I just finished eating a Dunkin Donut CHOCOLATE ICED DONUT MMMMMM- and it was delish! Definately put me into a blogging mood, if that was possible...

So I guess I will blog about what happened in the past few days.

My sister, who is turning 19, left on Saturday to go to her university. On thursday, I had to help her pack her clothes, and basically because we share, this is how it went:

Jenny: pack that, that, this.

Me: Um no, that's mine.

Jenny: but you dont even wear it.

Me: but I bought it, and it was like 50 bucks.

Jenny: UGH FINE.

I let her take this cute red flower skirt, but only because after she left, I realised she left three of her dresses here.... HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHA! So I think that was a pretty good deal.

I'm not a bad sister, I mean I was actually a pretty awesome one on the outside. I did what she asked, was a push-over which I hate, let her sleep in my bed etc. It was just if she cried, or something when I backed away. Because I dont know what to do at times like that, and I often find that what I try to say to make people feel better makes it sound worse.

So my sister's friend came over on friday, the day before she left and she was like so, have you written a letter for me? And Im like uh no? And she's like uh hello? Arent you suppose to write your beloved sister, who you arent going to see for like half a year,a letter? So of course I had to write one. I felt quite bad, so i even made her a stress ball onion.Pretty cool, yes.

I didnt get to see her go on saturday, which was like ops, but I hope she's having fun now! On saturday, I had a sleepover at my friend's house, Duckiee. It was loads of fun, and I love how around her I dont have to try to be all happy, and can be whatever I feel like. It would be waaay too long to explain what we did, but I hd a great time.

I went to church the next day with her, and it was pretty good. Oh, I wore this dress which I LOVE. I Bought it on Saturday, and the material is like kinda dark background with flowers etc. It made out of different patches of material, and is kind of like street looking but I love it. It's kind of hippie, only it comes to my knees and a lil higher. I love it! So, we were at church and yeah, and we were like asking this man all these questions, and it was real funny. He's real nice, and he seems like an uncle to me!

We played basketball, but all the guys were like Im so cool so it wasnt too fun. We drank fizzy drinks, and I love diet coke especially at night. Then we went to the bus stop, and before I say this, I just want you to know that Im not the type of girl who talks about guys alot. So, we were at the bus stop and I was listening to my iPod, when this guy in a white singlet, and a ukulele strapped to him was walking bare footed to the bus stop. Okay, so you know how sometimes at a bust stop there is glass on the ground because some idiot smashed the screen? Well that happened, and the guy was just walking over it! And while we were thinking ? then he JUMPS ON IT extremely hard. It was so freaky and weird. Then we couldnt see him, but on the other side he was playing the ukulele with his friend, who we didnt know was there. It was quite cool, and I could tell my friend was thinking that he was quite cool. Sadly the bus went and we had to get on. And so we past Ukulele guy and his friend, and it was very sad. But oh well, time to move on.

I love listening to my iPod. It is the best thing, and I love listening to it extremely loud, so I cant hear anyone else. It's like your watching a music video through your eyes, and you're in a movie. Your a bystander, and no one else knows you. I tried explaining this to my friend, but I dont think she got this.

After the bus, we came to my house, where I was basically freaking out about homework, and we were sleeping. (By the way, I finished most of my important homework apart from math, so that's good phew!). Then what I usually do is type my story on my computer, and then I was majorly freaking out because ICOUDLNTFINDMYFREAKINGUSB!!!! I rang my mum, nope. I looked in my room, nope. The kitchen, nope. It was getting hopeless until I checked my bag and BOOYA IT WAS THERE! So after I finish this blog, and drink a glass of water I am going to type some up, and then sleep.

Which reminds me: since my sister is gone, I now have the laptop, her computer in her room, and the one downstairs to myself. Oh yeah! And the laptop is now in my room, and will live there. Forever.

Sure, I'll miss you Jenny, but I'll make the most of it for now!

Honestly.

If you are going to invite me to instant message, and then you just tellme to go away, THEN WHY DID YOU EVEN INVITE ME TO TALK IN THE FIRST PLACE WHEN I WAS BUSY DOING MY HOMEWORK?

-Socstudies
-English
-Science
-stomp on certain friend

LALALALALALA.

Anything but Ordinary

Well, for Valentines yesturday:

For the people who have someone they truely love, I hope you had a good day. For the singles out there, go you! I'm sure you had a terrific day just hanging out with your friends, or bumming around at home perfectly fine. And for those people who whether single or not, moan about how annoying/sad/blah Valentines is, SUCK IT UP.

Oh yeah, I went there.
I spent my Valentines just walking around to the mall with my friend. We had a good time, and I laughed at talked a lot. We looked at clothes, and now I found two dresses I want, these brown boots, this plastic toy watch, a couple of hoodies and t-shirts. Then we meet my other friend who we persuaded to buy us some cookies, and I walked home with that friend to my house. We stopped at KFC where I had a load of laughs. Then I went home and typed up like 5 more pages on my story, which is a lot for one day on a school day. Very proud. And that was it, but I still had an awesome day.

Today? Splendid, apart from one fact. When you are in a awkward situation, do not make up some lie, denial but instead just admit it was you. It's better than being caught lying and being even more embarrassed than before.

Now I have to do my math homework, but I dont really feel like it. I'm listening to some real old songs that I was singing with my friend, and I realised that I missed them. So right now it's It Ends Tonight, and I have some songs from Brooke Fraser, who is an awesome singer! And some Avril Lavigne, who use to be my idol. I miss her, because she doesnt seem to have the same hardcore songs but I still love her.

'I'd rather be anything but Ordinary.'

Choices

Art.
Graphics.
Art?
Graphics.
Art.
Graphics?
Art.
Graphics.
Art.
Graphics.
Araphics.
Graphirt.





UGH!

A break from reality...

So it's 3:08am right now, and I really should be getting to sleep, but Im trying to not think about school, and so I started reading these series called the the Soul Screamers. I was looking for fantasy YA novels, when I came across this. Lately, just because I wanted to I've been thinking about writing a story. My story was kinda yet not like this, and these series sounded really unique, so I decided to try read them. And although they're not the best, I think it was pretty good and it got better later on.

Basically, there's this girl called Kaylee who screams when she knows someone's going to die soon. She's a banshee, onyl I cant think of the proper word, something like bean sdjfdsh, and yeah. it goes through her problems, and trials she has to go through which btw, is  A LOT.

Now for the romance part...
I didnt feel satisfied with the romance in book 2, and 3 halfway until I found out that (btw if you havent read this, SPOILER!) that Nash isnt really the good guy. You see, Nash is also a banshee, and although he's different from Kaylee, popular etc, he shares this one thing with her, that they are both banshees and helps her at the beginning when she is confused about her species. Then trouble strikes in book 3 when he takes this very addictive drug kinda thing from Netherworld, called demon breath which is basically the breath of a demon. A long story, but Nash gets hit by this breath accidentally and in 3/4 of the book in number 3, he lies to her for a whole month and has been secretly breathing this in although it doesnt affect him as much as it did to Scott and Doug because he is a banshee. Kaylee is upset, and damn right she should be! He lied to her, numerous times, compelled her by force to do things with him, more lying, gum eating to lie, and useed that creepy guy to go into ehr body when she was sleeping so he and Nash could organise when to meet up and get the demon's breath! Now, demon's breath is very addictive, and its hard once you start, but Nash is still to be blamed. There was one part that made me truely sad, when Nash confesses that in order to get the demon's breath, Nash had to trade his past emotions for the evil guy to 'eat.' In which case was his strongest emotions, with KAYLEE!!! So whenever he thinks of when they first kissed, etc he no longer remembers how it felt. This is truely sad, and I feel so sorry for Kaylee. And that ruins their relationship, because although they know they both love each other, Kaylee cant help but not trust him. Which reminds me, in the 3rd and 4th book especially, the people she has to trust (Alec, Nash etc) always KEEPS SAYING something along the lines of 'I promise you that this wont happen again', or 'I promise to help you' etc!!!! I think this was the author's point, that these words were slowly becoming meaningless to Kaylee becuase they were certainly meaningless and annoying epseically when nash said them! I'm not a Nath hater, I just dont know if I will forgive or forget what he has done.

In the 4th book, comes the trouble-Sabine, a living nightmare (literally.) She is a mara, which allows her to read people's fears and turn them into nightmares. She needs to feed on fear to survive. She is Nash's ex, or technically they never broke up. Its hard to explain, but practically she still loves him, and he loves her only as a best friend which still annoys Kaylee (of course! she stillloves him, and they have so many problems!). Sabine and Nash share stuff that Kaylee doesnt have with Nash, like he still has his past emotions of his memories with her , because HE DIDNT TRADE THEM, and he was her first. I still want him and Kaylee to get together, but there is another man I love...

And he is Tod, Nash older dead/well not really dead brother, who is a grim reaper / banshee and helps people's deaths or something like that. He isnt a ghost, but he can appear non visible, or visible to people that he wants to see him. He can go through walls, and is a cocky guy. Although he seems like a trouble maker, and dangerous in the previous books, he has a soft side when in the seond book he tries to save Addison, the girl he loves/loved (if my theory is correct...) from not having her soul captured. Although they failed, this showed Kaylee that a man could truely love a girl. I think that hopefully, Tod will slowly start liking Kaylee. In the 3rd book, only for a little, Tod's iris for the first time because he is usually in good control, changes colors. Banshee''s iris' change color when they are feeling a strong emotion. Although he use to always come and interuppt Nash and Kaylee, he comes up more in the 3rd book for Kaylee, becauase since he cant help Addison, he thinks he can help Kaylee. He cannot forgive what Nash did though. In the 4th book, although he came out far too less that what I liked, he support Kaylee a lot and had scenes with her that made me laugh. However, sadly there was no kapow, and instant love which I guess is reality although his iris nearly always changed when he was with kaylee but Kaylee couldnt think of what it was. He is there when Kaylee needs him, and I hope that there will DEFINATELY be more Taylee or Kod love later on! Nash isnt too bad, but I think Tod is a better catch, apart from well... he's kinda dead.

But no one said that life was easy, especially for Kaylee.

Thinking gives you a headache.

It is a serious problem when you are a drama queen and over think things.

So today I had my first day of school (gag me please). Its not that I hate school, but I just do. There was a time when I really enjoyed school, but now I just find it meh. Its okay when I'm at school, but afterwards its just extremely boring and I have too much time to think!

Basically this is my blogpost point: I am in Joo's class again this year.

SAVE ME. Although I was happy to see her in the morning, I didnt want to be in her class! June's also in my class which is good, but I really dont want to lie and be fake to Joo anymore. its not fair on both of us. And I have a feeling that this year I'm going to have to fight with her to either carry on or end our friendship.
Sometimes I wish that she was really good friends with someone else. I know that I'm being a bitch right now, and I cant deny it. Its just that everysingle time I'm with her, my stomache hurts and I feel like I want to throw up. Thats not how your suppose to feel around your friends right?
I'm also in the same class as these girls that I kinda dont like. Those bitches, who think they're so cool and take random photos etc. Also they make me real uncomfortable. But there are some nicer people in the class so I might try and get along with them.

All I can do is go along for the ride, I guess.



AHEFGKSDHGSJDHGJDSHGJSDHGSKJDHGJKSHGSJKDHGSJHQWOIJKLWOWAJF1!!!!!!!!!
I think it's time to calm myself down by reading a book and stop THINKING ABOUT SCHOOL.

I think I'm really boring. Maybe that is my problem.
Also I think Im going to miss my sister when she goes. Although Im not admitting that to her!