Smoke, snow and dinosaurs

Today was one of the funniest days of my holiday.

Before I explain what happened, I have to tell you what happened last night- or do I? Its not that important...but it'll be interesting! Blah blah blah.

Lets just say that people change when you meet them 8 years later and I'll know what Im talking about.

So today afternoon my sister and I decided to go out. Maybe it was the fact that for some weird reason, I was getting hypt up and screaming at her. Also it had just snowed (yippeeee!) so I wanted to go out and make a snow man. So we went out, and looked around etc. I tried to make a snow man but... it kinda failed, as the snow was so soft but freaking cold!!!

Here are the photos:

Oh yeah, so I was standing on the sideway when I slipped into this and as I was slipping I was thinking oh shit sleep dont make me freeze to death because usually where I slipped into has water and I thought it wouldve turned into ice and when I slipped into it I thought I would crack the ice and water would come out. But there was no water which meant water didnt come out and I didnt freeze to death. Im glad I cleared that up.

A smart way of making trees warm... wrapping them with a million lights...

Me squating like a person who has to pee, and freeazing my hands trying to make a snowman... which turned into a snow pile...

And then, I came home, to find out my dad had been caught smoking! Now btw, I am not a bad daughter who finds it funny that her dad is inhaling horrible stuff. I hate smoke. I could have a long rant about it, but I wont. So anyway, my dad use to smoke but he quit and stopped like 2 years ago. In Seoul, there are alot of smokers. It is quite tempting. So apparantely the story goes that dad was suddenly like oh its stuffy here Im going to get ice-cream and he left leaving my mum suspicious. Later he came smeelling of smoke and that is how my dad got told off.

Which is why I find it so funny- though I didnt see him get told off, I could totally imagine it. My mum was totally cool about it when we arrived home, but dad was like totally embarrassed.

CRACK UP.

And now I will talk about my new obssession of play-doh.

My sister and I were in the supermarket and we were bored. So we decided to buy some play-doh! I have decided that I am pro at making sad faces. Here are some photos... or not.

After like 15 minutes, my photos of the ugly faces and dinosaurs arent uploding! :O I will later on- I promise.

SO- sorry,  but I probably wont be able to go onto this blog and post something for around... 1 week? Im going somewhere and it has no internet stuff so :(

Valve!!



OmgthisissofreakingfunnythatiwanttopissmypantslaughingbutthenI'llwakeupmyparentsandIdontthinkthatwillbegoodandIreallyshouldonwiththispostshouldntI?

I am feeling happier than I have in a while.

Thank you, Allie. Your blog http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/ has made me crack up all morning. I found you last night, while I was sulking about my crap Christmas.I'd just come back from being in the car for like 1 hour, going to a bowling alley, watching my dad play screen golf, entering a room smelling of smoke and old men playing pool, walking outside and trying to not inhale smoke, then entering a random house who I dont even know and having to eat cheesecake there, making the stupidest mistake ever in my Korean-English vocabulary, being told by the man's daughter that I have a guys voice (oh gee thanks), being another man's daughter, driving home and wanting to fall asleep but scared that my contacts might roll to the back of my eye and end up falling asleep anyway, then waking up and freaking out and then against my will going up the elavator and typing in the pin number and then looking up different blogs and then finding you :)

I think I nearly did piss my pants laughing :) readers- go and get your butt on her blog! Awesome as drawings and posts.

Oh yeah, I should upload some photos of my night-

I need a new ipod. The ipod Im using right now only has like 1GB so I only have 100 songs :( man I love having an ipod. Saves you from boredom and its nice. I listened to my sisters blog while I was sleeping. Weirdly, I somehow turned it off while I was sleeping...

Omg. I have nothing to do. At all. 

I think I might go make some papercranes, watch and movie, read more of Allie's blog and be bored. 

I just found out that being bored makes you depressed. 

And being depressed makes you bored. 

And it repeats over and over.

I need a new hobby. I really should knit that scarf with my feet. But I dont have any wool. This day is getting shittier every single second. 

Im making a paper crane now. In year 8 I use to make paper cranes, and try to get 1000 for a wish. I only got up to like 100, but it was still a try. 

The rentals are making me go outside. I just want to stay inside, eat and make paper cranes like a hobo.

Maybe some fresh air will do me good. 

Here is my paper crane. His name is Manhang, which means good luck in Korean. He's a ninja, and can do some pretty mean tricks.

Happy Birthday Manhang!

Now I think its time for me to leave this nest.

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Boredom

Time to try out something new.
Quiz time!

A – Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? No, but I've almost kinda been in one.
02. Do you have a lot of scars? I have 3 on my leg, and one on my face from my cousin.
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? No. Well, a joke one. 

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? Yes. I threw cello tape at my friend. 
05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? Not from my memory...

B – Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? No.
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? Sometimes.
08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? No.
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? No. Never.
10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? How someone acts in a bad situation.

C – Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? None.
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? I dont think i'll be brave enough to give birth or have an abortion.
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Always.
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Take away all my happiness.
15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? Go to a school I didnt want to.

D – Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I dont really tell them, but it's in my face and tone.
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. When I feel sad.
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? Parents fighting, but just the usual.
19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? I laugh it off and dont show how I feel.
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. Yes, but it didnt really affect me because I didnt know her well. What affected me was how the people around me who knew them well reacted.

E – Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? um apart from cleaning dishes no.
22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? No.
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? Compared to some people no but to me yes.
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? No. Too immature and irrisponsible.
25. How old do you act? Sometimes my age, sometimes older or younger.

F – Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? Sometimes when I'm angry.
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? Family.
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? Not everything.
29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? Yes.
30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? Well um I see them everyday?

G – Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? 163cm, but I want to be at least taller than my sister so 166cm?
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? No there was this one time where I grew heaps.
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? Both.
34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? No, its all a part of life.
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Yes.

H – Hope

36. Love – real or not? Both.
37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? I guess more of a pessimist. I get that a lot.
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? Both. Our actions are the results, but I believe everything we choose happens for a reason.
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Well I'm Christian.
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? Listening to music. 

I – Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? There was a period of time when I felt extremely sad and lonely. I still occasionally have those moments, but I dont like to think about it.
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? No.
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? Um no?
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? Yes and no.
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? Weirdly, a lot but not just about myself. 

J – Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke)- QT, Swine Flu
47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? Both.
48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? Once when I was little I was laughing with my friend while drinking orange juice and I felt like I couldnt breathe.
49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! Too many :)
50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? Um sometimes? Not a lot.

K – Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends? all of them.
52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? It depends on the situation.
53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? idk.
54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? Higher.
55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? Um art, math (not interesting, its hard.)

L – Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? Well i guess you couldnt call it love but sometimes it felt like it. Maybe Obssessive love?
57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? Yes, but I dont think they mean it.
58. Is love worth it? Yes.
59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? Yes but I try to get over it because it might be true.
60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? I personally dont like saying I love you because most of the time its meaningless but I do have times when I mean it.

M – Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? Yes. Sad, but true.
62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? Er, average?
63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? No.
64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? Always love.
65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 7? You always need money, just not enough to be obssessed.

N – Naughty

66. Are you a virgin? Er yes.
67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with? Strange but it has happened once?
68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that? Not really.
69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? Ummm?
70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both! More nice?

O – Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? A while.
72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? They have to respect me.
73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? No.
74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? ....
75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them? Parents- theres always a limit and close friends- the limit is when I cant explain something.

P – Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? This is hard. I guess erase. 

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? Yes. Not having to experience love would be sad.
78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? I try to be optimistic but Im pessimistic.
79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? I guess.
80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please exlain what it was: -

Q – Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? I try to figure it out by myself but when I need help I ask.
82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? I believe in God, but I question other things, like how did different languages become, and how did people invent things.
83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? idk, maybe I've read too many stories but sometimes I think that there's a secret agency for spies under the government.

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? Let it go.
85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? I know the answer but i still doesnt seem right- why is there so much hatred in the world?

R – Respect

86. How do you show respect? I do but I dont. People reckon listening to people is a sign of respect. Im a really bad listener, which is bad. I show my respect through kindess, and caring about the person.
87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? Say something hurtful and mean it. I will always have a grudge even though I cant help it.
88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? in a strange way yes.
89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? Being told off.
90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? Both. 

S – School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? Um sorry I dont do grades.
92. When will you graduate high school/college? In a few years?
93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? I want to travel the world and experience different cultures and I guess find out why I was put on this planet.
94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? I guess hate. I hate all the fake people living in it.
95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? No.

T – Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? Yes.
97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? Hahhahaha well I have drunk alcohol but my parents offered so I dont think that is peer-pressure?
98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? No.
99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? Nooooo
100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? Well i guess Im more of a weak person sadly :(

U – Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I dont copy clothes, behaviours or things like that.
103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? I dont follow trends, I wear what I think looks nice.
104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? No.
105. What makes you different from people your age? I guess I think  a lot about different things. 

V – Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? My bed?!
107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? Yes
108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? The people who truely care for me.
109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? My sister.
110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? Yes and no.

W – Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? 1.For everyone to be happy. 2. Have people I can truely say that I can trust. 3. World Peace.
112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? truthfully, myself. Its selfish, but true.
113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? You have to make them come true.
114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? To eat some food.
115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? Sometimes yes and no.

Y – You

121. Are you more independent or social? Independent.
122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? Unfairness.
123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? If I truely believe in myself.
124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? I believe people can change, but somethings never will.
125. Do you think people are generally good ? Yes, they just become influenced later on.

Z – Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? Yes/no. Im happy that I have friends, family. I wish that I would always be happy though, and not empty. I dont even know why i feel empty.
127. Do you go on FacebookCraze.com to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? No.
128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? Both. i hate changes but usually its for the best.
129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? Yes/No.

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? Seeing people who almost have nothing to live for accomplish something and live happier than most people.

I miss you

Now that I got that out of my system, I'll just ramble on about other stuff. Yay.

I wish I had super powers. I wouldn't know which one to choose, but if I could have 3, it would be Invisibility, Flying/Teleport and Mind-reading.

Invisibility-get those moments when you dont want to be somewhere? Or dont want someone to see you? Problem solved.

Flying- Now my feet wont hurt from walking. Also it'll take shorter time going to places.

Mind-reading- see what people are really thinking of you. No complications.

Well for once I am stuck on a topic for this post. So here are some ideas I found on the internet:

1. Lists.

Okay.
5 Things I'd want in a guy.

1. He has to be nice. I dont care for that crap about girls liking the tough guy. He has to be nice.
2. No racism. At all.
3. Be funny, or make me amused whether he purposely makes me laugh or not.
4. Actually care about me, that sometimes I might be sad, angry, want a hug.
5. Love me-not what I'm wearing, my body, my lies but who I truely am. No judgements, respect.

2. How-to-do things

How to forget someone.
Whatever you do, DONT think about him/her. Find a new interest- and no, not facebook stalking them. Knit somethjng, join a club. Find their worst facts- that they are mean, ignorant, selfish. Dont dream of what will happen when you see them- think of what to do with your life! Are you just going to follow them all the time? Hang out with your friends- best therapy and it's for free too. If none of these work, you have some serious problems with this person. Good luck.

3. Tips

Dont stay outside in winter for a hour with a gold club.

Cheers.

Hate/Love

If you were where I was 10 minutes ago, you might've seen a girl in a purple jacket, grey sweater, knitted leggings and holding a golf club.
You probably would've have known that her legs felt like they were going to drop off, and any second she was going to hit something with the golf club.
Hahahaha. Just Joking. Not.

Let me try and explain when this all started. I'll start when my mum, my sister and I walked out to eat. We bought a cake at my favourite shop Paris Baguette, and then walked into Starbucks. It was freezing cold outside, but not as cold as I would be later on. We had some hot chocolate which reminds me- free advertising. Go to Starbucks-best hot chocolate ever. I actually hate hot chocolate and almost finished it if my sister's friend hadn't come over. We reluctantly went outside and Jenny got into the car (lucky) with her friend. My ex-crush (my sisters friends brother) waved and I waved too. He had a haircut. It looked good. We waved again and then they went. Good choice.
My mum and me just walked around the mall for 30minutes. Then we had to meet my dad and this is when the trouble begins. We waited for ONE HOUR or more outside. And it is winter here. One of the coldest days too. Seriously, I still cant feel my legs.
We waited. Walked. Waited. My mum was in the worst temper and so was I. Finally we meet my dad, also pissed. Runs in the family.
They bickered and I walked towards the apartment. I was holding onto my dad's golf club. i was imagining hitting something and I have to admit, it did make me feel better. But probably not five minutes later.
And so, somewhat later we arrived here.

What a crap Christmas/Eve.

Happy Birthday Jesus,
Happy Birthday Jesus,
I hope your having a good time,
at least more than meeee...

Gosh. I deserve some chocolate.
Merry Christmas.

Socks

Well, it is 5:42am and why am I not sleeping you may ask (or not)?
It is simply because I am bored.
Yes, just deal with it.

So here is what I have been doing since I realised I was bored:
1. Upload a video on how to knit a scarf without needles but with feet; I know I am a freak. I get that a lot.
2. Drink coke and then get hypo and giggly.
3. Look in the mirror and practice raising eyebrows with my sister.
4. Have a brilliant idea to make bubbles and squeese soap into some water (just so you know, it was a half failure.)
5. Weirdly (please, I dont even know why I did this), fold all the clothes that are in our suitcases neatly, knowing that tomorrow morning it would look like I did nothing. This includes our scarves, socks, hoodies, t-shirts, etc. It took a while.
Then finally, the title of this post: socks.
I decorated my socks. I was bored, okay?
So after I tidyed my clothes, I was pretty tired but still bored. I was folding my socks and then suddenly I wanted to put a face on my socks. I went to find the needle and thread, which took me most of the time actually. Like 10 minutes, before I found them. Oh yeah, and then I had to find the button eyes, which also took ages as I had to find clothes, see if they had a spare button, take it off, then fold it back. It took some time, but here are the results.

Okay, so I'm not the best er... sewer.

 Also I ran out of a button so I used a pompom :)

 Good...

Bad... also has a screwed up mouth.

Anyways, even though they're pretty messed up Im quite proud of them :) Im wearing them right now and they are very snuggily and warm. Which reminds me: since its nearly Christmas, remember to make someone or yourself buy you fluffy bed socks! They're really nice, and warm. You can get all sorts of patterns too.

Trust me, you want one. Badly.

And heres a Christmas present- you get to slober as you look as these yummy photos of my favourite bakery- Paris Baguette >_________________<

Omgosh I love this shop. Lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove

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Idontreallycare

In the past few days, I've been procrasinating about the fact that soon I have to blog about my arrival in Korea, what happened etc. I so wasnt feeling the mood to do some recount writing. But a few minutes ago, I realised something. 'Wait, this is MY blog. I write whatever I want, I make up the rules. Heck, who's telling me that I have to write about Korea?' And so here I am, typing up whatever shit I feel like right now.

For example, I really should change the title of this post. Because when people say that they dont really care, its all lies. A form of hard amour over our sensitive selves to protect us from blunt and harsh words. For example, when people call me fat, I'll laugh over my surprise and pretend I dont care. This is what I envy about poeple who have to tell the truth, or arent afraid of saying whats on their mind. Of course, this can often lead to offended arguments, but it is no worse not being able to say what is on your mind. If I could say realy what was on my mind it would be this:

Why are the bitches always the popular ones? Whoever said that looks werent everything is surely being ignored by the world. Sometimes I like to say at home, watch some telly and look like a mess. You're a bitch and I dont know why we're friends when clearly you dont care how I feel. Do I really look that stupid, as If I really dont know anything? Cant you tell how I/he/she feels about you? I dont see why you guys are arguing over something as stupid as this. You can be real annoying sometimes. Cant I do what I want for once? Do you like the fake me better than the real me thats more crazy, but still real? How can people not tell that I'm really mean and selfish? I want people to miss me when I'm gone. I lie for my own good and sometimes lie for others sadness. I may hate those bitches out there, but inside I'm also as evil and hateful as them. I've thought about yelling at you more than once. I've wanted to run into a car before, not because I've wanted to die, because I've wanted to see how people would react and think of me. Sometimes I get so angry that I boil inside but I've never been able to speak all of it. Everyday, even though I might be getting prettier on the outside, I'm getting uglier in the inside. I really want a sandwich, but I wont ask for one incase it's rude. How dare you say that to me you hypocrite! I know what your really thinking, than you really dont want do this. Why does it seem like that no one really cares how I feel? Sometimes I feel like that I really deserve all this. You say that I'm bland and always look bored but you might want to think twice if you saw what was going inside my head. Does it mean that If I'm weird, annoying, unthoughtful to you, others will think the same? Why am I doing this? I know that I have a purpose to life, I'm just trying to find it. Man, those people who act all fake piss me off! I judge people, I dont like the fact that I do but it's true- the only thing that matters is if your going to give them a chance or not. I wish that she would stop pretending that I wasnt here. Why do I act so wimpy all the time? Is it a crime not to like the same things as you guys?

Ugly ugly ugly.


Looks can be deceiving.

Procrasination

I guess I've never really been this busy enough and tired enough to not write a post. These few days have been weird, with its ups and downs. i think I might just live the moment, because I'm kinda glad that I dont have time to think about everything. That hurts your head alot. So good luck Jenna for tomorrow and I'm sure you'll get along, maybe even have more fun without me! Because your such a warm bubbly person :) and i think I might take a holiday from the Blog World and catch up with you guys later this weekend :) Sayonara!

-M

Cold

As you might've guessed, I'm in Korea now and whoa, it has sure been crazy.I would imform you on whats been going on, but right now I'm just not in the mood. Also another excuse is that it's pitch black now, so I cant read what I wrote in my notebook and type it up anyway. So here are my thoughts right now:

I dont want to be here. Or I do, but I just want to be somewhere which is predictable. Right now I can hear my uncle snoring, which is the least thing I expected and he smokes. Also a surprise.

What I did today really exhausted me. I'm so tired. I've had time to relax, laugh but I'm still so tired. Ugh. Also I have a pimple near my mouth. Yay.

Mum and Jenny keep fighting gosh. Jenny is being a pain in the arse, and Mum is being childish. They are both annoying in my opinion.

Still,we have our laughing moments. They're hard to explain, but they are hilarious.
So thats it really, readers! I will update on what happened tomorrow, I promise.

Oh yeah, Jenna I miss you :( xoxoxo

P.S it is cold here. Really cold.

.10

It's 12.23am right now.
In 5 hours I go to the airport, onto the plane, to Korea.
Somehow, I am both excited yet sad.

-Sunday-
Nothing really good happened. I guess it was fun. I was a little sad because I would miss out on Christmas, and all the QT :) but I know that soon probably regretfully I'll have to come back to New Zealand so no regrets.
Here are the texts I was sending to myself while I was 'listening' to the sermon:

11:36am-Todays my last sunday so I'm a little sad :( oh well. Cant wait for the snow cough cough. Shit I'll look so fat in my eskimo clothes. Teehee. Jenna wrote on my hand
11:38am-and now I cant wash my hand. Smelly. Hm. I like JC's hair today. Very... Spikey. Today YKWs last day mwah. Goodbye! Im so hungry I could eat Jundusanem...
11:40am- Or not. Omg so hungry. JL is winning, surprisingly. Fuck my bad scratched me! Apparantally J made a stupid move. Jenna had a weird dream. Strange sermon.
11:42am- Baby crying. So hungry. JC lost again. i think Jenna and me bet well. Hm I might write a poem. A rhyming poem. About sermon. It will be weird.
11:50am-
A typical Sunday,
where you have to pay,
attention! attention! attention!
Or else you fall asleep,
while others look and peep.
11:50am-
Jenna is rolling her eyes,
hello goodbye goodbye!
All longing to see,
the end to pee,
play cards and talk,
and maybe eat some pork.
An escape, escape, just another
Typical Sunday.
11:51am-and thats the end of my poem! That was fun, might make another. JL is losing, mwahahahah. My ear hurts I think it's infected.
11:54am-OMg we either have 30 minutes or 1 hour left. Jundusanem is glaring at David etc and now so is IH and JC. I remember those good times. Actually I still do that.
11:58am-'without God, we cannot' hhahaa talking about my old homestay J and I :) I wonder how they are. So hungry! And I have to play clarinet too. So weak.
12:01pm- oh yeah, Jenna UPDATE LIFE IS GOOD! I wish I downloaded DoodleJump instead.Damn. Going to play games, bye xoxo

and that was it! An interesting talk, mainly talking about how hungry I was. I still am, and man I want some frozen coke :)

After we did the usual etc fool around, play cards with the guys but I dont want to talk about that.

Infact, here are 10 interesting facts about me:

1. I have this thing about If I see a bug, I keep imagining that its on me and for 30minutes, I endlessly scratch myself.
2. I have the smallest and curliest baby hair in the world. Yes it is annoying.
3. Idontknow if anyone finds this annoying, but I actually like subtitles. It makes me actually understand what the person is saying.
4. I am the worst procrasinator in the world. Also best promise-maker. It drives me nuts and if I could i would hit myself. I just have this thing where I forget to do what I have to do because I get interest in ooo! A new smootie maker! etc
5. ... which relates to fact number 5, I am the worst/best depending on how you see it, pushover. I do anything. Which is good for others, not so much for me. I'm only not to my bestest of friends. This is what drives me crazy the most, the one I find myself swearing in my head about the most. It is a curse.
6. I have two turtles. One likes eating it's poo. They both enjoy er... 'entertaining' each other.
7. I secretly wish I could be a ninja and beat up everyone who pisses me off. Unfortunately I am not, but at least in my dreams I am.
8. I hate coffee, but I love ice coffee. I keep stealing my mummy's. Crime no. 1
9. I am pretty weird. For example, me and my friend were just talking about living in a world where we live as blobs. And have pet blobbies. Yes, I like to make up imaginary stories up.
10. When I was little, depending on the speed of the song that came up, I would skate that fast in an ice-rink. So when it was super fast, I went crazy. I even tried out for the fastest skater competition. Bad choice.

(btw I'm still itchy....)
I hope that made you non-existant readers out there find out a lil more about me :)
Right now, I'm procrasinating to go off the computer and think about not sleeping and instea staying awake until 4 when I have to get ready to go.
Cross my fingers that i dont crash ;)
(Yay I got my frozen coke!)

Ch-ch-change

I've changed my template, as you non-existant readers should have noticed. I've always wanted this simple template, but I've never found it until 15 mintues ago. So, I was looking at this template website, and there was this really cute skin that made it look like I was writing in a notebook, but you couldn't read a thing, and the font was so small. While I was trying to change this, I found this template called Classic Template or whatever and it has a whole list of old skins! And thats where I found this and I'm glad I did :) But I still dont really like this font >:( I think I will like it better in italics, so I'm thinking about it....

Anyways, I'm going to Korea in a few days, like 3? It'll be exciting, but also annoying, sad, and veeeeeeeeeeeeery chilly as its going to be minus 15 degrees or whateever. But hey, at least it'll snow! And I'm going to gain so much weight... but hey, I'll just do arobics when I come back :)

So yeah, I'm pretty excited... and what I'm going to do is that I'm going to bring a book and write down all my everydaythings and type them into this blog when I have time. Oh yeah, and btw I finished school so IMNOTATURDHAHAHAHA! Year 10 better be good or I dont know what else I'd do.
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Hairspray

If you lived in a Hairspray world, what type of person would you be? I'd like to be the bright, laughing and enthusiastic girl, who loved to dance and sing, and was loud and bold. Of course, I would probably be the girl with the nerd glasses, braces who crawled under her desk in shyness-but it's nice to imagine. What if life really was like a movie? All bright, anything is possible etc. There would be some ups and downs, but you'ld always know by the end of the movie, everything would be alright. Though I only watched a little of Hairspray, I found myself being jealous of this world,where there was crazy hair, you could dance and nothing was 'sexy.'

Me perfect world? A world where asians werent called 'ching chong'. A world where there was no pyramids, a class or a rank. No popularities, everyone had their opinions no matter how weird or bland it was. A world where there was no war, and everyone was humane. Everyday could be filled with laughter, and smiles.

But there are times where tears, anger and fear is needed. The world isnt perfect, nobody is. Thats why we all have to learn to R E S P E C T




only some of us don't.

Headache...

If you read the title, you would've noticed that my head hurts. So this is going to be a short post, whether you like it or not.
So on Sunday, I was super sleepy because if you read my last post, it would've said that I had an all-nighter. I was super sleepy, so I didnt do much at church. I bused to Riccarton where I saw some church people, like KM (Jeeeeennaaaa) for like a second. JJung was like Where are you going? and trying to throw stuff out. Then I meet Jessie and we had loads of fun! We drew lightning boltz on each other, but my whiteboard marker wasn't working for we went to Whitcolls where she ALMOST drew it with Super Vivid! Luckily she didnt, but instead drew a thick lightning bolt on my forehead. I ran around chasing her but left the whiteboard marker in the shop. We wore our 'groovy' ties, and watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. We talked loads, and although Jessie embarrassed me by giggling a lot, I liked it,  that she was upspoken in a non-offensive way. But I've learnt to appreciate bluntness. Anyway, then we took loads of sticky photos, and they were pretty awesome~ The man gave us $20, even though we put in $10. Turns out it was a double day, hahahhahaha! After a while we went home which I was kinda thanksful of, because my head had hurt, and it still does. Maybe I should go to sleep, like I did before...

Insomnia

-I guess I cant really call it insomnia, because I'm staying awake by choice, this is my first in ages for not sleeping before 1 and yeah. But might as well give it some drama to it while I'm describing it-

Today (or really yesturday), I went to the library with Jenna and June. It was certainly an interesting experience, but I'm not sure If I want to experience it again. It's not that it was bad, it was just... awkward? Then Jenna and I went to Glassons etc to find a dress but we were just mooching around, and I found this dress that I wanted so we were just looking around other places when I checked the time and I was like SHIT! Because it was 4:01 and the shops closed at 4. (btw mum is in toilet so I'm trying to be quiet...) We came to Glassons but the stupid blonde storegirl was like in this bitchy voice 'Soooooorrie, your not allowed to come in.' Ugh! (Dad just entered, but he just told me to go to sleep soon phew.) So we bused to Riccarton and  Jenna was like I wish a certain someone would come.... :D hahahahhaha. So I bought the dress from riccarton but I got two sizes bigger than I was suppose to because there were none left -___- but I might wear it to church! I didnt really do anything when I got home, oh! I did watch A Cinderella Story and though it's corny, typical etc you just gotta love it. Chad looks pretty hot in it too. Which reminds me of him in Freaky Friday... crack up XD anyway, that was good then I watched We Got Married which was cuteeee as usual, then Happy Together which I laughed in a lot. Then I read some books, and thats how I'm here right now.

I read the Uglies, the Pretties, and a bit of the Specials but for some reason I just could've get my head into it because I was skimming. It's basically about a future world where before the age of 16, people are called Uglies, ugly etc and then you get this surgery thing and become a Pretties and just have fun but theres more than meets the eye... Then I read the Dead is... series which are always good but like the series before I just could'nt get into it. Then I read As You Wish and omgosh, I found another amazing book. It is this book, where Viola is wishing to be loved, to belong and suddenly this genie appears and she finds out that she has three wishes she can use. Sounds weird, I know but it's actually good. The genie Jinn is just a typical genie, waiting for his master to hurry up so that he can go back home. But the relationship between them deepens, and the lines between master and servant blur and soon they treat each other the same. When Viola says her first wish, Jinn realises that this is not just another master, but begins to have feelings, something Jinn's dont do. He feels jealousy, disappointment and love. Soon Viola begins to see her feelings for him and they start to see each other differently. However they have to remember that after the third wish, Jinn will disappear and Viola will forget about him, as if he never existed... This is the book that made me concentrate, and wide awake. I loved this book, because it interested me with the genie and Jinn. It was good to read something I hadn't read before- a perspective of a genie who cant-shouldn't-fall in love with a mortal. Viola herself didnt interest me, it was the pair of them that made my heart beat furiously and create butterflies. I can actually still feel them right now, which I havent felt in ageeeees. I also got this aching thump whenever I read about Jinn's jealously etc and it was weird. Still got it. But I love how this has a happy ending, but it's not corny. Finally I can read a book without feeling 'empty' afterwards.... apart from it's after results of butterflies and strange feelings. It made me experience -do I dare to say it?- love. A awesome must-read book that I reccomend.

Well now after that huge ranting about it, now I'm going to be watching a korean movie called Speedy Scandal. I'll inform you on it soon!
(A few seconds later) well that was disappointing! So I downloaded it all, and then suddenly the stupid tingy goes weird so I have to download it again!
Well I guess I should say bye now, maybe come back on If I'm not asleep xoxo

Update

Well I havent had a blog in a while. I was pretty busy in life, and for once I wasnt all depressed-or at least that much. So here's how things have been going...

• Last Tuesday my grandmother passed away. It was unexpected, and I went home feeling great because I'd been talking with June, and when I came home, I asked mum why I didnt have maths and then I could feel something was wrong. Then she told me grandmother passed away, and I was like 'oh.' I hadn't even thought about grandmother passing away, we'd all thought she'd would live forever. I cried a little, but I didnt really know my grandmother that much... truthfully I didnt like her and auntie much. I just felt sorry for my mum, because we hadn't seen her for 8 years and we were going to go to Korea to see her next month. Which reminds me...
• I think my auntie has schizophrenia. I still dont really have proof. There always has been something different about auntie, she was always scary and mean. But I thought that it was just herself. Then I found out that Grandmother did EVERYTHING for her, like grocery, bank etc. With grandmother gone.... So then I heard mum and Jenny talking about a hospital and Jenny was looking up schizophrenia on Wikipedia and I knew what it was, because last term I read a book on it. She was telling mum how there were two cases of it, and one of them was that it didnt show much but their emotional personality was affected...? Idontknow, but I was just curious, not that its any of my buisness.
• Saturday, I went to the library with Sally and drew and got out books. I was really happy to read something so I'm going to go to the library every Saturday >< then we made heaps of food and I had to sleep over. The next day I felt bad because I text Jenny asking why mum etc werent here and she was like GET LOST. So I felt really bad. Then after we did this thing where you have to drink like four cups of water, but one at a time, run to the wall, spin around 5 times then come back and drink another cup. It was fun, but they keep fighting over it. I sat next to Jenna and idk if she was thinking the same but I was like .....It's just a game.... Later we played limbo and Jenna was AWESOME WOOP WOOP! Of course I sucked. Then we did this thing where you jump over chairs and it gets higher. Once again I did the worst but I was pretty proud because I got less scared of it and I went waaaay higher than usual. Jace won that. Then we all bussed and Jenna wanted to go somewhere with Jace and I was trying to make her to, but then his friends came and we were like -____- I got off first, and I had to go back to city because Jenny wanted me to get her cellphone charger. Sometimes I am such a pushover.
• I got my period again, only this time it was SUPER FREAKY because I had swimming yesturday and it was like !!!!!!! And i wasted heaps of tampons with no success. I am a failure.
• Yesturday we had no school, so I was just chilling, doing a lil homework but not much. I bought a whole block of chocolate and ATE IT ALL. Okay, I do have some left but thats not the point. Ugh.
• Today, well I have a sore stomache so I asked dad if I have to go to school and he said no. But Jenny threw a physc and was like wug;ghakjybvgivgqe bgueh buirqe tggh dfhgjkdfshbvugidh;ghfadybpia. Truthfully I dont see why she was all like that, because she's probably done worse stuff than pulling a sickie. But whatever.
• Tomorrow after school is my sister's ball thingy for year 13. I have to go too, and wear a dress. Yay. I hope its not too tight, and I dont have big enough boobs but whatever, 'll have to live. Also I cant run in it, as it curves into my legs.

So thats it really, vavle amici!